This week seems to be one for unreturned emails, calls and texts. It’s been a very slow week – made interminably slower by the fact that i finished a rush of work last week, incorporated, and am waiting to hear back about some more work stuff now. Also, touching base with a few friends has been touchy and difficult lately – rather worrisome.

“All of which makes me anxious, at times unbearably so.” – GorillaZ

Went out with parents last weekend to go check out single flats. A step in the right direction, I suppose. But it was not without intense difficulty and tension.

On the one hand, my mother agrees that i need to get out of the house. On the other hand, any choice i make is terrible and most neighborhoods are to be frowned upon.

She wants to put money down on something to be purchased. I’m open to renting. The places she has her eye on are ridiculously far from amenities. I’d prefer to be closer to trendy/convenient places that don’t require the use of a car.

Unfortunately, of the locations we did check out, none were anywhere near suitable, i’d agree.  On the upside we did learn that Forest Hill is very nice… but all of the rentals there are highly likely to be extremely old or extremely lived in. It was not uncommon for us to see nice townhouses or full houses on one side of the street and a severely unkempt low-rise on the other. Also - places to buy in Forest Hill are ridiculously and heart-stoppingly high. Looking for places to live is stressful. :/

All of this is really serving to make me feel isolated. I can’t operate on my own because I live on the terms of the household. I have no social life and have difficulty connecting with others here.  I can only hope that moving would help, but it would be nice to be able to get out once in a while and figure things out.